meetin boss after his attachment in china... and wat happened in this 3 mths...

when new sch semester start... i feel tt boss changed a lot after the trip to china... i do not know why but i juz feel his attitude towards mi changed a lot.. is it because of the incident happen eariler before??? i do not know...

Nevertheless, we still gt contact and have fun... i remember i meet him on the second week of sch reopen and we went to someplace near raffles shopping centre... we sat in the mac-donald and have a relaxing nite... we chat abt the experience he had during his attachment in china...

He told mi alot of things tt happened at dere... i so envy tt he have tis kind of experiences... really and i was vexed abt the proposal for Gentech camp...

I remember one of the wednesday i gathered my member to work on the planning and i was veri vexed abt the proposal already and one of the member keep on at one side scolding me saying she ask mi to plan eariler y i didnt listen to her... but the problem is that nt i wan to plan so late is tt all committee member is hard to gather... and the meeting have repeat everytime...

so i shoot her back on why tt time when we appoint leader you dun wan to be the leader and she sae she didnt sae she dont wan but not only me heard tt she sae she dun wan b leader...

i still remember when we sae abt the leader thingy is in the project dreamscape... sabrina and wilfred oso heard wat she said... in the end she put all the blame on me... which i find is veri unfair... they even tell me that they were veri unhappy with mi... but the problem is tt when i called for meeting who really turn up... i mean i set up the department already and i feel that they are old enough to organise the department meeting by themselves and update me... but they didnt they juz wait for mi to give instruction and they didnt even bother to ask mi what they should do...

i am really fed up so i told carol tt since they said me until like tt there no pt of me to be the leader again so i ask her to appoint wanjing to continue it... i juz wan to be helpin them... but the story nt end yet...

during the december holidae we go back sch to plan the things as it is to finallize everything... we were called to get back to sch early in the mourning but when we reach there we have no task to do and we sat in the lib for 4 hrs... we start to chat and play games in the end wanjing complain to our advisor that we were "playing games" with her... but the truth is tt we have nth to do... she didnt give us task... when carol came she threw her tablet pc on the table and ask us why we are playing tis kind of game but the problem is who started it first... sabrina, wilfred and i know it veri well... so i shoot back saying that if i wan to play game the previous nite i was having terrible headache and jz ate panodol goin to fall sleep soon i still ask wanjing to call me to settle some of the stuffs and lighten her workload... wat i get in return is scolding... which i feel is veri unfair... the worst thing is tt chee yuen mention one thing tt upset mi alot which is... "logistic ppl never do their work... ziqin and steve" in which i really do not know i was being post to logistic... no one told mi till we get back into a class den they told mi... i mean if they told mi eariler tt i am in logistic and i didnt do work i understand is my fault but they are over boarding it... they didnt tell mi i am in logistic and sae tt i didnt do my work... i was being accuse but wat more i can sae at tt pt of time... i dun wan to make the situation worst... so have to take all down...

my bdae

My bade was yesterdae... i was quite happy yesterdae morning as the first message i recieve is from someone i like for 8 yrs... and her message is veri creative... i wont earse it away for my life...

as for todae is that my fellow gentech member celebrate my bdae for me... i was being touched by them and i nearly cry out as i never expect tt they would remember actualli is wilfred and sabrina idea i suppose...

it was the first bdae tt my frend celebrate for me... and they are the first banch of frend i celebrating my bdae with them... i really do not know how to describe the feeling it was such a surprise... i was veri shock abt it... but i wont forget it for my entire life... it a cca tt make mi to have fun n laughter and also a cca tt hurt mi alot... i do not knoW should i continue to join the cca or quit it as my boss ask mi to quit once and for all... as they dont appreacite wat i did for them... take mi for granted... i do agree with him... but it make mi confused tt shuld continue with this cca ant... struggling... no one understand mi at all... haiz...

Celebrating Chee Yuen Bdae

Today we decide to meet at orchard MRT station to go eat steamboat at seoul garden as my friend sabrina have the coupon. We have quite a lot of fun and laughter in while eating. Too bad aixia couldnt join us. She fall sick... haiz... after we finish our lunch, wanjing, gabriel went home i think... after tt sabrina, wilfred, chee yuen and i went to nearby mind cafe to play... board game... at first we played monopoly... the monopoly tt we played is not sold in singapore. it is imported from america... it quite a special cafe and quite relaxing over dere... after finsih having fun we decide to go eat beancurd and this moment my mother called... her voice seem like very worried and scared so i ask her wat is it abt, but she said dun wan to scare me so when i get home den sae...

After i hang up my phone, my friend sabrina ask mi to call aixia whether she wanna to join us to mind cafe the next dae as we got something to do next dae... after she answered the phone she told us one news tt we didnt knOw... as ch 8 News juz over she said tt in the afternoon beside orchard MRT station and the whole afternoon we were there and we didnt realize it... a maid is being killed and the body is being seperate... so scary...

Nevertheless i did enjoy the dae with them

Class Outing...

So fast one semester passed le... haix... it time to sae goodbye to my fellow classmates... i'll missed u all... i do not know why i felt that this time the class that i'm in is more unbearable to sae goodbye to them... even though it juz a short 16 weeks we spend together but we went through a lot together... i still remember that the 1st dae of school of this semester... it was simon class... that time i was team with louis, nilofer, habib n phyo... i still remember tat lesson juz like it happened yesterdae... haix... y happy moment always passed so fast... =(

todae my class juz have a class outing... as i waS something on for cyriva side so i went late... even though i went late... i still manage to cover my fault as i brought 3 of the faciliators that faciliate my class... the three of them are: preman, simon n caleb...

but todae outing was quite fun... n i think i did sae something wrong in the outing that make myslef feel bad... as amy sae that she wan to eat prawn one of my frend (forgt is who liao) took for her... den she sae junwei y didn't take for her as he was her "son"... all blame on my big mouth saying that "no ma... he will peel off the shell for u..." i was really joking with the 2 of them... i didn't really expect that he will do for her... i dunno y i out of a sudden feel so suan suan in my heart... i do not noe is it becoz i sae den junwei peel the shell for her... if realli is... i feel that i was the most stupid guy in this world tt let other guy gt a chance to do it for a gal tt i like... haix...

Haiz... pain pain pain...

haiz... i wish that she can be my stead also... but why the yao yan keep on spreading... nw even my IG member also anyhow guess le... :( I also didn;t sae anything... why the all said that i and her stead liao gt one leg (in chinese) haix... i wish i haf also but nope... my hope might be gone soon...

todae i was in sch doin the idea tat she give for one of the project work... in the end hand kenna burn... it veri painful but i keep telling myself... all the things is possible as long as u tried n haf the determination to work... however, it can only used in work but not realtionship... hahaz

i seriously dunno wat is happening to mi... i was so lost todae... nt in the mood of doing work... even though i sae all rite if my best frend like her let him go ahead and sae his feelin 1st but i still feel pain like being stab by hundreds of knives in my heart... i dun wish to haf it i jz dunno y i haf this feeling... my heart was so pain... tat i dun care jz wan to do work to let myself to engross in it... hide from my feelin... hide from my frends... dun let them worri... let them haf fun...

however, i shuld apologies to wei lun as he is the most innocent person in todae thingy... i not pin pointing him or wat... it jz tt his buddy gab said some so irresponsible thingy tat makemi fed up... n i'm nt blaming wei lun for anything for the project work as i know he gt his own reasons... i was trying to sae the facts that the IG member is doin nth except the few of us... and tt shuldn't b the case... den wat the pt of joinin IG... ??? it so no meaning... haix...

however, the pain that i suffering now is much more from wat i suffered todae... hand kenna burn 3 times in a row... burn the string till keep on smelling the burning smell as well as burn till my chest pain again... ( which i didn't tell the rest of my teammates...) dun wish them to worri... i know that boss see this he surely will scold mi again... n i noe he meant gd... the reason tat i'm nt tellin them is also... we were prepared to go hm n do so no more burin n the pain jz last for a while... so shuld haf much problem...

my chest started to pain since sec 1 till nw also dunno the reason, even though my doc ask mi to go take x-ray but i tt time in sec sch no time to see... i noe it veri foolish but my mom also havin the same problem n i think it jz some kind of yi chuang bing... my health from young was not gd... (mayb due to the fact tt i was no. 7 child and all my mom calcium all given to my other silbling... :p) tat y i havin poor health... i dunno why suddenly i worte this dwn... anyway, back to the topic...

in my heart pain... on the other side i gt a gd news from my sis... she passed her exam todae... total of 7 papers she managed to pass n become jetstar asia cabin crew... at last she gt the job she dream to b in... so happi for her... way to go sis! ur the best... :p she will b flyin to hong kong tml for training till 11th aug... (free time for mi... hehex) juz jokin i'm nt tt bad... hahaz... but i think i'll missed her ba... even though it jz few daes as no one quarrel wif mi... nt fun liao... sad... haiz... anyway jz hope tat she gt bon voyage... hehex...

Confused… Confused… Confused…

So long didn’t blog liao… also dunno wat to write… recently I juz behave unlike me… from lesson to lesson… I juz dunno the reason on how I act towards every problem… what attitude I’m having… am I giving up on all my module or juz really not in the mood to listen to lesson… especially one particular lesson… circuit analysis… recently I juz keep on rebutted what the facilitator said… I have never been so relax after came to polytechnic… I mean I still got do my work however, juz a bit more relax as in playing n joking in the lesson… I shuld counted myself lucky… all my facilitators treat me very good but I always disappointed them with my UT result… why I can do well in my daily grade but when it came to UT I jz can’t applied from what I learnt from day to day… I jz can’t figure out…

I so wish that I could stress myself up again like what I had did for last year but I can’t… the more I stress myself the more I have no mood to studied… what’s wrong with mi… am I too stressed up or it jz a excuse for myself… I hope to find out the answer… the first 3 UT from what I know I considered that I haf done badly for the module… even though I know that time is a constraint but if I understand what I learnt I shuld be able to finish the paper on time… and not leaving so many blank…

Recently, I realize that I fall in one of classmate… she is a very nice gal… she not only clever but also pretty n helpful… she had helped mi a lot in my module especially in my analog module… she even stay back after school till 7+pm n 8+pm teach mi and my the other classmate… I really like the feeling that we r having nw… as a frend… which I dun wish to spoilt it…

Frankly speaking actualli I like her since the first time I saw her in one of the event that my CCA having… when I know that she is the same course as I am I so wish to be same class with her and indeed we did become classmate… the world is full of amazing things… I never really expected that i got the chance to see her again n become her classmate even teammate… I already very contented… she even joined two CCA that I’m in… and now I have more time to work with her which I’m happy about…

However, things is not always on the bright side of it… just two days ago my best friend told me that he like her also… I really dun feel surprised at all… but oni that my heart gt sour sour ( in Chinese) feeling… I really dunno what to do… one is my best friend the other is the gal I like… who can tel mi what to do without hurting any of them…

I'm BACK!!! :p

Wah!!! Didn’t realize that I already 4 months didn’t update my blog le…

I know that JQ and boss had been waited for me to update long time ago and I also aware that my blog got “spider web” already… But please forgive me as I was very busy for that 4 months due to my NOKIA competition… :p (finding excuses for myself)

But I didn’t let you all down… :p My team got the runner up for the competition… hahaz…

Throughout this four months a lot of things happened… which I don’t wish to say anymore but a lot of things is worth for me to remember… for example the trip to Malaysia with rPBL which I will not forget in my entire life… It was my first trip to oversea… I really did enjoy myself for the few days… I remember one of the nite we borrow the badminton racket from the badminton IG people and play at the sch that we are staying at… we play for very long time n I really did enjoy it very much as I VERY long time didn’t play badminton and exercise le… so after I perspire I felt much more better… in the end the next day when I do the facilitating I got nose bleeding… (dunno whether it due to the over exercising… ) den after that the rest boss know liao…

Another thing that is unforgettable is the NOKIA competition… throughout the competition I also learnt a lot of things and get to know a lot of things about Hand phone and technology stuffs… it is a very good experience for me as I really didn’t expect that we can get into final and won the runner up… I know a lot of people from there even though at first we felt strange as we are competitor and does not dare to talk to each other so much (just in case to blurt out any information about our proposal…) after that quite ok le…

Another interesting event is the Social dance IG camp… actually before the camp I know Amy though rPBL event with International student IG den after that coz both of us r yr 1 student so we hope that we can be in the same class for yr 2 1st semester and really we did… not only that I also got the chance to work wif her as teammates… lol very strange I do not know out of a sudden I wrote about this anyway I ask her to help me out for the event and she willing…

The whole event was so fun and a bit of things happened oso in the camp which I don’t wish to mention… I still remember the day that the five of us stay overnight in school… Boss, Wanjing, Wilfred, Amy and me… four of us playing big no. 2 while boss use my laptop to chat with Addison… after that Wanjing, Ziqin, amy and I chat in msn… it was so fun… that nite was really a fun nitez for me… den after hat amy sleep in the sleeping bag that li hong lend to her… the way that she sleep was so cute… opps… :x I think boss getting ideas to disturb mi by now…

Then that nitez we went out for dinner with kwai fong and xiuling, due to amy is late for that day so I was being push to bring her to the place that we are eating… initially it was quite okay as kwai fong sat beside mi and stanon the other… but dunno wat “happened” during the period I go and meet amy… after I went back all the seat is being changed… in the end I and amy sat opposite each other… (must be boss n stan the one playing the trick… ) I think I also did something wrong that nitez that give li hong and Wilfred wrong idea about something… as both samy and I order the same dish however, as I ordered first therefore mine came first… (as when I bring amy to the place while walking she keep on complaining that she very hungry so I let her have mine first…) is that anything wrong of letting a more hungry person to eat first since I’m not that starve? I really do not know why so many people so concern about my relationship status… even my sister frend oso… haiz… sad…

I admit that I and gals are more close but that doesn’t mean need to be BGR… I mean I got a lot of female good frend outside as well and the longest friendship I had is a female… I know her since P2… den I remember one time she jz broke up wif her boyfriend and we meet up I try to comfort her and li hong is with me… and her frend Karen was wif her… so I ask pei ni to one side and ask her to tel mi wat happened den suddenly she cried so I ask her to cry out at one shot… den actually 9i was trying to joke wif her saying that u nid my shoulder to rest a nt… den suddenly she really lay on my shoulder… I was so SHOCK!!! I don’t dare to move as she knows that I once fell in love with her before… but nw we r like bro-sis… once li hong saw that his eyes become veri big!!! Maybe he dun noe wat really happened ba… throughout the years most of the gal I like is pei ni best frend I oso dunno y oni Jesscia I like her for 7 yrs… haiz… nvm… nw I juz wan to concentrate on my studies the rest let it go natural don’t ask for much nw…

Before change to another topic I would like to sae/ clarify few things:

I’m so sorry to JQ, Kelvin and Lavania that I put didn’t turn up on Tuesday
I know that these few weeks both boss and lavania was troubled so juz hope that both of you can be happy… Don’t worry be Happy… :p
JQ seem like got new target, just wan to be KPO want to know who is it… hehex…
Will Edison Chan be my brother-in-law??? Hahaz
Boss when can I have a lady boss? :p
Thanks boss for lending me his HP as mine spoilt…

Nw change to another topic… nowadays, I keep on recalling the past… I felt that I really miss all the days that I spend with my old frends… time flies very fast… so fast 7 yrs past since I was sec 1 from a innocent boy become a more grown up boy… hahaz… I keep on recalling the daes I and her spend together last yr… keep on finding excuses to go see her… almost every nitez send her hm but always turn out she wait for my bus wif mi as she always scolded mi when I walked hm… remember one time she threaten mi that if I don’t take bus she dun allow mi to send her back ever again… so I no choice lo… :p oni she can let mi to take bus home from tampines library dere… no matter how my mom scold mi or sae mi I jz won’t listen… it was so amazing… still remember one time I specially go down to CCK to see her and the reason was that my sfrend wan to go dere to sing k would ppl believe that specially from tampines go down to CCK to sing k??? hahaz… but she did… I remember that time she work at the seiyu near the female undergarment tt area… at first before meeting I have nose bleeding outside the hereen den inside the CCK shopping mall I gt another one… the third one is that inside seiyu I gt the third nose bleed… it was the first time that I having nose bleed three in a row… after that after singing k we wait for to knock off and send her hm… after she knock off she went to Watson to buy sth so we acc her… in the end my frend purposely left mi and her so we took the train from CCK to woodlands… throughout th trip we tok a lot of things… I remember that she told mi that she like auntie like that alwayhs go market to buy vegetable and cook for the family… all these is the things I never know… after I heard le… I felt that after all my taste is nt so bad as I remember that when I was in sec 1 ppl used to sae mi had bad taste as I like jess… hahaz… but nw they turn in the other way… mayb is that I see the potential in her… and didn’t really go for look I go more to character… :p I know till this moment boss sure haf things to sae one…

Secondly is that I also recall the incident that happened when I was P6 8/2/1998 tt dae was my grandma death anniversary and my uncle and aunt came to my house sand sae someone jump down near their place… I didn’t know that is my frend till mon morning which is 9/2/98 when my sis saw the previous nitez newspaper… i know that what is past shuld let it past but it doesn’t seem that the way… I know dere certainly in life that we can’t forget… treat it as a lesson for us to learnt… mayb that the reason y I treat my frend more than myself as feel that is veri short I dun wish to have any regret like what I had before…

Is it wrong when treating people good? I treat people well doesn’t mean that I want to get sth back from them… I know a lot people say that I can ignore that gal but I feel that if that gal really killed herself would I be a person tt obtained the sin? As I know what she going to do but stopping her… mayb I too kind le ba… but she is really a person I can’t stand by the way she chat with me in msn I already can’t stand imagine if I really stead with her I’ll in doom… (hope that she would see this blog… as dun wish to hurt her feeling… ) when I reject she sae she HATE me but still pester me… I really dun understand how gal thinks nowadays… when I put the pic that I with Livonne as my msn pic she quickly confront me who is that gal… What should I do?

Anyway I just want to boost up my grade like what my wife encourage me this afternoon must jia you… and both of us jia you at the same time… hope that I can get better grade for my next UT… tyhis time no excuses for myself liao… last time can sae due to competition but now NO MORE… no matter how bz I am I also need to stress myself to study for UT… JIA YOU!!! I can do it… so as my wife… :p So no more time to think about BGR le… Only study in my mind… the rest shun qi zhi ran… :p

~ THE END ~

Go eat steamboat wif victim, boss, addision n others

wah... long time didn't blog liao... last few weeks i bz wif my cca stuffs as we joined the nokia competetion... it is nt as easy as i tot it is... anywae i finish le... wish mi gd luck for it... :p

todae boss nt in sch n we planned to eat steamboat but before tt i need to do sth... i need to do my boss club thingy... before takin the poster from xuling n cindy i aready told someone to come along wif mi but i dunno wat happen i even mention i go up n look for my club advisor so let it b.. he dun wan to come along is okie... so i go up my own n take the poster... i didn't expect tt there woud b so much poster tt they print... total of 70 poster... i'm not complaining or wat as at least the club other MC did help mi wif the work even victim play a part... but there is far too much to paste and someone keep on rushing mi which made mi more fed up... so i decide to call boss n ask him wat to do... he ask mi to paste a few more... den the rest pass to him n he paste another dae... so we go down n meet him after pasting a few more...

at steamboat dere i dunno wat happen to mi... as i used to hate of peelin the shell of the prawn but todae i was out of myself... i help my "wife" to peel... n myself didn't eat any prawn too... dunno y... haiz... out of a sudden i wan to look at stars... mayb it the night amtosphere tt make mi think of the daes tt i doin Design and technology wif my tt branch of frends... i miss them a lot... especially those who i can't contact them... like wai leng, haidir, azim n azli... i oso think sth else... think of the time tt i always after sch go @@ the gal i like n accompany her to go hm... hahaz... in the end it always ended up she accompany mi to wait for my bus as she knows tt if she left mi alone at the bus stop after she go i'll walk back hm n nt taking bus... n onli she can made mi to take bus hm as normalli i will walk hm... but once she sae tt if i walk hm next time she dun wan mi to wait 4 her liao... whenever think of here i always gt the sweetness in my heart tt dunno how to sae... i also recall a lot of things tt i n her sae... she trusted mi a lot n tel mi her family problem... n i'm the 1st guy frend tt noe tt... i was somehow happi... but i realli dunno how she feel... whenever i ask her to go stead she sae no... but the feeling tt she give mi is so strong... i mean she she dun like mi den don give mi false alarm all the times... it made mi more hurt... anywae no matter wat happen to her i'll always still b her side...

back to eating steamboat... tt dae i oso didn't realli eat much mab scare become fat ba... hahaz... we talk a lot of crap n things at dere... i was like a madman keep on laughin till my cheek veri pain... tonite is one of the daes i happi havin... thx everyone... for givin such a gd nitez... it will kept in my heart always...

Gone to boss hus n shi fu hus....

Yesterdae boss invited me, victim, Addison n moth to his hus… we have lots of fun at dere… we at there saw a lots of his postcard collection which I, victim n moth like a lot… I saw a lot postcard I wan n some of them r old postcard… we at his hus we oso play playstation 2… hahaz… moth todae oso bullied by boss… but I really dunno y when I was with them I feel so relax… till the extent tat all the unhappy thing all gone liao… after tat we meet li hong at city hall to go sha hus… when we reach shi fu hus we eat steamboat at there… I dunno y tt dae I ate veri little… the food was nice but mayb I scare pai she and the previous few daes I oso eat steamboat with my family n ate too much… hahaz… whatever the reason is I jz noe tt I didn’t really eat much… after eating we start to play poker… normally people play with money but ours is play with food… who lose have to eat the new year goodie… indeed tt dae was fun… coz I didn’t really have much attitude from him… we go home veri late when I reach hm it aready near to 1…

I oso dunno what happen to the both of us… the question still spinning n spinning in my head… but jz couldn’t find a answer… since he treated mi tt wae I oso have nth to sae… or am I really like wat my shi fu sae…. My character gt pro… if tt the case can someone kindly tel mi where the pro… like I sae if u really think I gt pro with my personality or character plz tel mi… dun always sae tt I gt pro but the pro dunno lie at where… wat boss & victim sae is rite jz b myself n those who can b frend wif mi for my real character is my true frend… so I decide to b myself back but still holding the key to my heart till I found my true frend… nw onli 3 person haf it… u shuld noe who r u…

Wat a Chinese new year eve!!!

Yesterdae is the eve of Chinese New Year… we are still doing spring cleaning and lots of stuffs need to do… early in the morning I woke up to do the cyriva club poster… however when I do nearly finish my father start to nag… saying that I made him can’t sweep the floor and wipe the floor as I was “playing” computer… but I’m not… I was doing important thing… so I was in bad attitude and shut down the computer and let him to do his stuffs… not long after… I heard that a bang (not veri loud like something drop) comin out from my study room… so I go in n @@ that my external hard disk was on the floor… I dunno what my dad did to it as initially it was not on the floor it was on a tissue box so I oso dunno what to sae… haiz… like that never mind he oso ask mi to do work… actually it quite okay but the problem is that I haven eat my breakfast yet… so I have to wait till lunch… the whole dae I was bz doin work… until 5pm like tat my head start to pain… havin headache so I go take a nap… till dinner time I woke up and eat… at nite I n my 3 sis oso playin poker but we bet veri little… every round onli 50 cent n I won $7 at the end of the game… after that we watch one of a veri old show tat Leslie chung cast in watch till 1+ goin to 2 den I veri tired so I go sleep…

Go @@ boss in hospital…

Todae is mon it the starting of my new year holidae… I and JQ decide to go @@ our boss… as JQ say she go first to @@ boss because I’ll b late… I expected that when I go in she will b bullied by boss… however… when I step in they were watching television… it was a channel that I thought both of them will not watch de… i bring a bag of fruits and we start playin till dunno when we watch tv again... dunno until when I oso join them and watch… normally we will have a lot of things to sae onli that todae we were very quiet watching television… at first we were watching kids central show after that we watched a show that liu jia ling cast in… we were very quiet watching it… we watched till it end… den sha (moth) called and ask where the place… as she oso comin down… after received her call my boss start to high and active as moth comin to entertain him… he start to sae when sha come wat will he do to her… hahaz… indeed when she reach she was being bully by boss… it was veri funny todae… even in hospital environment I will not feel the seriousness as I used to feel that way whenever I step inside a ward… but tis ward is an exception…. Dunno y… but really hope that boss will be fine…

happening for past few days....

On 4 feb kel told mi somthing about him... he told mi tt he having bad headache for the past 2 months... and we decide to go to eat steamboat on 7 feb however on the 5 &todae i can't contact him i was very worri as 6 feb in the morning i recieve kel call but no one speak up make mi more worri so i sms JQ on todae 9+am... in the end she call mi and scolded mi tt i wake her up... but i didn't expect tt it will wake her up... haiz... den ard 12pm i recieve another call from kel and at that moment i wasveri shoch as he break another news... it was that he was being hospitalized... and he ask mi to break the news to victim n moth... and mi n victim decide to c our boss the next day... whlie i still keep to accompany my sis to shop for new year clothes... but my mind jz can't be in peace... i was quite worry about him... but he sound like he ok or mayb he jz don wan us to worry abt him ba... anyway... hope tt he will be fine...

1st dae of the month....

Todae is the 1st dae of the month... Todae it quite a happy day for mi as i understand todae lesson and i know how to calculate the question asking for in the worksheet as vincent do it once time to get the "model answer" and ask mi to try it out on my own... todae i satisfied the most as i noe how to do most of the calculation parts... and our team todae work veri effective by 12 pm finish all the work liao... after that my frenz and i go orchard eat... we haf lots of fun n laughter... i realli enjoy the dae but i dunno y after the 3rd meeting i become veri moody... i jz wish b alone or find someone to tok so i IM my "boss" however he bz writibg his rj eventuaali i'm oso so wait till 4.15 den he came... after den we went for the club meeting... i was quite alrite... i still can laugh and of coz when it come to serious i had to be serious... i jz dunno y the moment step out of the living room my moody mood came again... i dunno is it due to the fact tt i was quite tired and thinkin of other stuffs as or mayb is due to the mornin thingy... i oso dunno... i waited for my frend at the station for 25 mins. it quite ok to wait for him but if he won't reach there so early he shouldn't meet mi so early and i haf to wake up early to meet and he was quite late when i sms him he sound like it fine for him to b late and i reach dere early is my pro none of his business like tt... i'm nt blamin him or wat... but at least he can sms mi tel mi tt he won't reach tt early so tt i can go out later n get some rest... or i can go sch straight n rest in sch... but nvm... wat it past aready past... hehex... i think todae i aready siaoz enough le... nw shuld b ok.. so "boss" n jie jie don worri i jz need time to cool down as yesterdae oso sth unpleasent happened but it over liao... so tml is a brand new chapter of our life... muz spend it wisely n nt thinkin those unhappiness in the past at the same time learnt from the past and nt makin the same mistake or prevent the same thing happen...

wat happen??? y todae the things i did was jz nt rite....

wAt haPPen??? did i sae anything wrong??? or wat am i doing todae??? todae i jz don feel rite... even though in the morning it still quite alritez however when it come to lunch all the things jz went wrong... is it due to the emotion tt i have yesterdae deep inside mi tt made to drift off from wat i doin todae??? i doubt so... i dunno y i feel like i sae sth wrong jz nw when i sms my frend (u know who u r) wan take tis chance to srry... i realli do not noe wat wrong with mi... jz don tok anything or anything rite todae... haiz~ perhaps tt work for too long brain start to have problem... even todae in the presetation i smoke it through which i seldom do it... and i totally have no confidence in watever i sae... where my cconfidence go?? haiz~ i jz hope tt the 4 1/2 weeks can pass veri fast... tt all i asked for... i wish tt i was having break nw... but i'm nt... sad... y nw a day a lot of problem happen to mi... sway... i think tt the word t can decribe mi... even when i was crossing the road yesterday i was nearly knock down by a car... which is the 4th times in 3 weeks... so unlucky... i think i need to be more careful liao... lucky yesterdae my frend immediately pull mi aways or else nw i shuld b lying some where else liao... thx fauzie... life is short especially u wouldn't know wat will happen the nex moment mayb we will strike rich the next moment or we will go some where else due to some reasons... anywae i trteasure the ppl ard mi veri much n thx for all the things u guyz did 4 mi... :p

wat a dae....

todae we having SF workshop... which i didn't wan to attend... however i still attended it... and my stupid alarm clock jz can't wake mi up by the roster shouting... haiz... (shuld i change another alarm clock???) i woke up at ard 7.39am... n i noe i'll b late for the workshop... i aready rushing and when i was abt to go out someone called mi... it was saiful... haiz... y he alwayz like to call ppl at the wrong time... haiz... in the end i end up 8.19am left my hus n reached kebangan at 8.40am stil gt a long way to go... haiz... when i reach redhill i tot i'll b damn late... n wanted to take cab eventualli i didn't so i decide to walkewd faster n run... finalli i 9.10am reach the gate of th school and i saw cindy our cyriva club advisor... however i jz smile at her and den cross the road n keep on my pace... after tt when i reach the sch i rush up to TS05 but the door is lock!!! at tt time i was panting n hard to breath... so i called seiw ping but she didn't pick up so i called yi cheng actualli they had change the venue without telin mi... haiz... sad... but 1 lucky thing is tt i didn't take cab as i reach le they still haven start it... haiz... den i team with KL, berz n Ivan... throughout the prestation i listen veri attentive as i realli wan to learn somethings but i dunno y everytime glenn is there i was so afraid to speak up... haiz... i noe he is a nice guy but i jz scare of his face... dunno y... and todae i havin quite a lot of fun n learnin things as well...

however... i been out of a sudden being drag into sch event last mins which is KL asked mi to replace amela... haiz... but during the process of attached to a real fac helps mi a lot in my FS i oso see the students realli tryin veri hard to think of the possible ans... it was veri fun with that grp of "students" i hope to see them again... if gt fate... i'll mizz them all... n i was surprise tt they actualli ask 4 my email add and ask to take pic wif mi... as i didn't help much in the guiding... i'll remember them alwayz... and i noe 1 more new fac from CED (Alvin Lim)... tis week is his 1st week in rp hope tt it benefits him as well in this workshop... all the best to u all...

shopping dae....

todae is my sis Joey off day... so i accomapny her to go robinson sales at hall 5 expo... i've to sae srry to two of my frends... i'm so srry boss (kel) & victim (JQ)... i'm so srry guys... i noe it bad to left u 2 but.. i forgotten i metting my sis so srry... hope u guys understand... todae at the sales my sis go see her stuffs so i jz wandering around the men wear... i found a jacket tt is situable for mi to wear to RP... and i like it pretty much oso (as it is cheaper and suit the purpose on wat i wan to achieve...) i think if people ask mi how much the price it would b they will be shock... as it does not look like the price it shuld b... however... the trips was not so nice as i went to the men wear to walk ard n ar for five ard den my sis came back... and i was quite boring tt dae and i shuld go out with u guys... haiz... regretted... haiz...

haiz... wat happen to mi???

Haiz.... wat happened to mi??? did i think on sth too in or i jz simply didn't care of the surrounding things... i had been nearly knock down by car 2 continous dae... it on thurs and fri... maybe there so much things happen in the week so i realli have no mood to think abt anything... or because too much things happen and cause mi nt to see it... haiz... i oso dunno... i realli dunno... i jz wan to b a person wo can live happily is it so hard to acheieve??? y things alwayz come my way especially ming yun... y ming yun alwayz wan mi to challenge it... i jz a human y muz he take mi so hard... y alwayz sth tt shuld happen in gd ways alwayz appear the other way round for mi... haiz... i remeber i nearly die a few times le... but always being rescue... the 1st time is nearly drown... tt was when i was in p 3 or 4... den my whole life since to change... everytime i'll try sth n it will happen one dae de... i dream tt my sch will haf fire for 5 yrs... same old dream but 1 yr didn't dream of it... it realli happen... i do not noe i'm lucky or wat... but i feel like i ke my frends & relatives... everytime when i gt major examination alwayz gt someone realted to mi died de... haiz... nw i enter the sch RP at redhill i do not know is it whether it my uncle bao yu wo or wat... coz the first time i go redhill is to attend his funeral... i juz feel like no matter who close to mi something will happen de... or mayb it jz coincidencely... i also dunno...

Finalli gotten an A from carrie....

i'm so happi to see my daily grade tt i finalli gotten an A from carrie... i have to admit that this sem topics is quite tough for mi n i had try my best to get wat i deserve to get... i do not know is it someone playin politics in mi or i realli do not up to the standard she wan... haiz... however, afeter changing the team i had to admit that with pei lee, alex and pershant i can work quite well wif them but i jz can't work well with some others... who i had team before dunno y... especially someone whom is my best frend had change his whole attitude towards mi... i do not noe y... actualli on the 1st dae of sem 2 we have one small "incident" happen... i doesn't mean to throw my temper at him... i oso didn't angry abt him but dunno y his attitude change on that dae...

i remember every time during symposium meeting i suppose with him as a team... he shuld come to my side & discuss abt it but he alwayz go to joyce n KL there i do not noe y... ok tt fine with mi... but he even can change my slide without telling mi... wat is wrong wif him??? at least he shuld inform mi 1st... after tt when KL listen to my presentation he heard n he see is so different... after tt den he told mi he change the slide... -_-''' i didn't expext tt to happen as i trusted him... lucky i still have my original silde wif mi...

after that everytime during enterprise he slack in class... i already dun mind as at least after sometimes he will take zhu dong xing to ask us wat he need to do... but sometimes he jz give mi attitude... i noe tt mayb is the "incident" let him think tt i cannot joke with but sometimes he oso need to noe his limit... i jz hope tt i can get the 'old frend' tt i haf... seriously... i realli appreciately his frendship... i mean i dunno y i felt hurt tt he is nt tokin to mi like last time... we like 4 mths didn't tok abt personal thing... i been tryin to communicate wif him but he seem to avoid it and i dunno wat is it... so sad... he jz dunno how much i appreciate him as frend... a aready use soft approach wat else he wan... i aready raise my white flag... he win i lose... wat else he expect mi to do??? i never felt so hurt before even though the gal i like rejected mi... i didn't so hurt before... i realli do not noe wat is in his mind... sha n addison had help mi asked him but he himself oso dunno where the pro lies... wat else can i do??? who can tel mi??? haiz~

Yea!!! i pass my math ut... finalli...

yea!!! i finalli pass my 1st ut for math(actualli is 2nd ut)... haiz... haven to work hard to maintain the grade as i cannot affort to drop it... todae cna change tam le... sianz... todae i slack in class as i didn't realli do my work in brainstorming the ideas... but i think overall i did gd job as i actualli wrote down all the comments i had for the 4 teams and shooting them Qns... i hope tt they noe tt i didn't realli mean to shoot at them but i jz wish to pass my comments to help them further improve... i do not y the team i shoot the questions seem like they dunno how to reply mi... haiz... i realli dunno wat to ask or shuld i keep on askin or stop... moreover i seem like askin qns tt they r unable to ans most of the time... am i over doing???

math differiation...

todae i be hafin differenntation ut... which i noe tt i'll done badly for it... as i didn't finish 2 questions and lost 7 marks for it... i noe tt i had flung my 1st math ut so i can't afford to flung another one... sianz... jz hope tt i'll pass this ut 1st and the other 2 as well... haf to work hard on my daily grade le wor~

UT... haiz....

mi todae having enterprise ut... i veri scare tt i havin a E for this ut... all i pray is to get at least a D+ for it... haiz... i noe tt carrie n choon hou had help mi a lot i this accounting topics and i realli appreciate veri much... carrie i noe tt i mayb will disappoint u therefore i apologies here... jz hope everything will be fine...

Why is this happening???

Wat hAppen??? y my Class seem so different from wAt it suppose to be??? iS it bacauSe of soMe incident happened??? haiz... i jz hope to get back to the old TS04-08 where all of us can have so mUCh fun and jOke wif each oTher without any offence... wat happen??? i also dunno haiz... can anyone give mi an ans???