Class Outing...

So fast one semester passed le... haix... it time to sae goodbye to my fellow classmates... i'll missed u all... i do not know why i felt that this time the class that i'm in is more unbearable to sae goodbye to them... even though it juz a short 16 weeks we spend together but we went through a lot together... i still remember that the 1st dae of school of this semester... it was simon class... that time i was team with louis, nilofer, habib n phyo... i still remember tat lesson juz like it happened yesterdae... haix... y happy moment always passed so fast... =(

todae my class juz have a class outing... as i waS something on for cyriva side so i went late... even though i went late... i still manage to cover my fault as i brought 3 of the faciliators that faciliate my class... the three of them are: preman, simon n caleb...

but todae outing was quite fun... n i think i did sae something wrong in the outing that make myslef feel bad... as amy sae that she wan to eat prawn one of my frend (forgt is who liao) took for her... den she sae junwei y didn't take for her as he was her "son"... all blame on my big mouth saying that "no ma... he will peel off the shell for u..." i was really joking with the 2 of them... i didn't really expect that he will do for her... i dunno y i out of a sudden feel so suan suan in my heart... i do not noe is it becoz i sae den junwei peel the shell for her... if realli is... i feel that i was the most stupid guy in this world tt let other guy gt a chance to do it for a gal tt i like... haix...

Haiz... pain pain pain...

haiz... i wish that she can be my stead also... but why the yao yan keep on spreading... nw even my IG member also anyhow guess le... :( I also didn;t sae anything... why the all said that i and her stead liao gt one leg (in chinese) haix... i wish i haf also but nope... my hope might be gone soon...

todae i was in sch doin the idea tat she give for one of the project work... in the end hand kenna burn... it veri painful but i keep telling myself... all the things is possible as long as u tried n haf the determination to work... however, it can only used in work but not realtionship... hahaz

i seriously dunno wat is happening to mi... i was so lost todae... nt in the mood of doing work... even though i sae all rite if my best frend like her let him go ahead and sae his feelin 1st but i still feel pain like being stab by hundreds of knives in my heart... i dun wish to haf it i jz dunno y i haf this feeling... my heart was so pain... tat i dun care jz wan to do work to let myself to engross in it... hide from my feelin... hide from my frends... dun let them worri... let them haf fun...

however, i shuld apologies to wei lun as he is the most innocent person in todae thingy... i not pin pointing him or wat... it jz tt his buddy gab said some so irresponsible thingy tat makemi fed up... n i'm nt blaming wei lun for anything for the project work as i know he gt his own reasons... i was trying to sae the facts that the IG member is doin nth except the few of us... and tt shuldn't b the case... den wat the pt of joinin IG... ??? it so no meaning... haix...

however, the pain that i suffering now is much more from wat i suffered todae... hand kenna burn 3 times in a row... burn the string till keep on smelling the burning smell as well as burn till my chest pain again... ( which i didn't tell the rest of my teammates...) dun wish them to worri... i know that boss see this he surely will scold mi again... n i noe he meant gd... the reason tat i'm nt tellin them is also... we were prepared to go hm n do so no more burin n the pain jz last for a while... so shuld haf much problem...

my chest started to pain since sec 1 till nw also dunno the reason, even though my doc ask mi to go take x-ray but i tt time in sec sch no time to see... i noe it veri foolish but my mom also havin the same problem n i think it jz some kind of yi chuang bing... my health from young was not gd... (mayb due to the fact tt i was no. 7 child and all my mom calcium all given to my other silbling... :p) tat y i havin poor health... i dunno why suddenly i worte this dwn... anyway, back to the topic...

in my heart pain... on the other side i gt a gd news from my sis... she passed her exam todae... total of 7 papers she managed to pass n become jetstar asia cabin crew... at last she gt the job she dream to b in... so happi for her... way to go sis! ur the best... :p she will b flyin to hong kong tml for training till 11th aug... (free time for mi... hehex) juz jokin i'm nt tt bad... hahaz... but i think i'll missed her ba... even though it jz few daes as no one quarrel wif mi... nt fun liao... sad... haiz... anyway jz hope tat she gt bon voyage... hehex...

Confused… Confused… Confused…

So long didn’t blog liao… also dunno wat to write… recently I juz behave unlike me… from lesson to lesson… I juz dunno the reason on how I act towards every problem… what attitude I’m having… am I giving up on all my module or juz really not in the mood to listen to lesson… especially one particular lesson… circuit analysis… recently I juz keep on rebutted what the facilitator said… I have never been so relax after came to polytechnic… I mean I still got do my work however, juz a bit more relax as in playing n joking in the lesson… I shuld counted myself lucky… all my facilitators treat me very good but I always disappointed them with my UT result… why I can do well in my daily grade but when it came to UT I jz can’t applied from what I learnt from day to day… I jz can’t figure out…

I so wish that I could stress myself up again like what I had did for last year but I can’t… the more I stress myself the more I have no mood to studied… what’s wrong with mi… am I too stressed up or it jz a excuse for myself… I hope to find out the answer… the first 3 UT from what I know I considered that I haf done badly for the module… even though I know that time is a constraint but if I understand what I learnt I shuld be able to finish the paper on time… and not leaving so many blank…

Recently, I realize that I fall in one of classmate… she is a very nice gal… she not only clever but also pretty n helpful… she had helped mi a lot in my module especially in my analog module… she even stay back after school till 7+pm n 8+pm teach mi and my the other classmate… I really like the feeling that we r having nw… as a frend… which I dun wish to spoilt it…

Frankly speaking actualli I like her since the first time I saw her in one of the event that my CCA having… when I know that she is the same course as I am I so wish to be same class with her and indeed we did become classmate… the world is full of amazing things… I never really expected that i got the chance to see her again n become her classmate even teammate… I already very contented… she even joined two CCA that I’m in… and now I have more time to work with her which I’m happy about…

However, things is not always on the bright side of it… just two days ago my best friend told me that he like her also… I really dun feel surprised at all… but oni that my heart gt sour sour ( in Chinese) feeling… I really dunno what to do… one is my best friend the other is the gal I like… who can tel mi what to do without hurting any of them…