Sorry JQ… & yisha...

Sorry JQ… I know u wan to help to clear my CE point this yr… but srry that yesterdae n todae workshop I didn’t attend… the reason I had told u… hope that u can forgive mi… n sha oso as I let u 2 down… anyway thanks for letting I haf the chance to go 4 the workshop… thx a lot… jie jie n shi fu… hahaz… really thx… mi nw cough more n more worst le… haiz… I know wat comment u goin to give mi le… I next thurs go @@ my family doc le… don’t worry.. tis time I’ll ask 4 inhaler… :p

Satisfaction dae…

Todae I went for the linux workshop conducted by OS IG… after getting the first touch… I liked it veri much… even through I didn’t use it before... it is quite friendly user… anyway it a veri good workshop… after the workshop I go the palza to help rPBL to prepare for the open house thing… it was quite fun in doin it… I do not have Satisfaction since the symposium le… hahaz… another thing is that I wan to sae srry to eelin as I fly her 2 times fei qi plus todae is the third time… srry… this few daes I’m nt feelin well as I’m sick… I can feel tat my asthma will come back in a short time…srry for nt joining u all… I promise tat once I recover I’ll cover it… :p… anyway I’m ok nw for the moment… next week I’ll find time to go @@ my family doctor… onli he have my record of asthma… hahaz… strange ba… :p… anyway u all nt need to worri abt mi… as I still can run, sing n dance nw… hehex… sha u need to b happi ttat u do nt haf flu or sick nw as u gt one which is abt the same as mine… u should noe wat I mean… ur body n mine is quite weak aready nw u nt sick u shuld b happi don’t always wan to b sick… n I need to clarify tat I didn’t go sha hus gt second reason… I don’t wish to pass my virus to u all As u all eatin steamboat… mi havin bad cough… so… hehex… a sick boy muz stay at home to rest… so can recover quickly n can join non sick frend for fun… hehex…:p

Shockin dae

JQ I know that todae I seem veri trouble but I think u should noe wat happen to mi after I told u… thanks for accompany mi to buy the external hard disk… thanks a lot… todae is oso a shockin dae to mi as I saw mu ut grade for my engineering math… I gt the 1st E for all my module… whereas the rest of my grade gt C+… I do not know y… mayb I think not see the Qn carefully ba… but I really thinking of givin up le… but becoz of u guys I decided to get back on my feet to strike to get better grade again… thanks guys… I find tat I more n more like RP le… hahaz… at here I learnt a lot of things… I spend a lot of my first time at here too… I went through a lot oso… I learnt class politic which I do not wish to use… as I believe tat to get good grade do not really need tat but I think I’m wrong… even if I don’t use it… they still use it on mi… hahaz… but tat nt an impt pt… wat is impt is tat I learnt throughout the process… hahaz… anyway I won’t give up so soon… I should fight with the so called ‘fate’… don worri guys… I think though le… sorri to make u all worri… :p

Wat a dae!!!

I veri long time didn’t visit science centre le… I really haf fun at dere thanks guys I think if nt u all I won’t b so happi… actually I wan to freeze my feelin for a gal in the fun… thanks for makin tis trip as I was really don wish to feelin… I oso do not know wat I tryin to sae jz wan to sae thanks… frankly speakin I really do not know wat I’m tryin to do… before I meet u all I jz met my sec sch frend… some of them is once I was quite close to them… one of them is a person I always scolded him as I don’t wish he failed his ‘o’ level n need to retake as he alwayz playin a fool in class… I know tat I was being nosy but I jz wish to see this branch of frend I spend 5 yrs studying wif them can all go poly together… but did I know tat whatever I did in their eye was nth… they tot I might b seeing them can’t make it so I did this to them… but I jz meant good… in the other word I was nosy… hahaz… but todae when I faced them… I realize tat I had nth to say to them… whatever they ask mi I ans… It become like veri awkward… like a QnA session I faced in class everydae… they tried veri hard to pull mi inside… but I do not know y I jz wish to listen to wat they say n if it funny jz laugh I jz wan to b away from the conversation… I do not know y… when the moment sha message sayin tat she stomach cramp cannot join us.. I called her… and ask her to tok to mi… or I should sae I wan to find topic to tok on the phone n stay away from the conversation for the moment… they also know that I like to sing k but they didn’t invite mi to go wif them… wat kind of frend they r… I also do not know I purposely mention going to k box wife e lin n li hong or I wan to clarify whether sha is comin wif us or nt… not onli tat when Saiful call mi I call tok to him till so ‘crazy’… I really do nt know wat I trying to show them… am I trying to show them tat the current Meng Hwee is nt like in the past le… nt shy… do nt care how ppl see mi… and do not like the past bookworm… n start to crazy… n start to b more socialize… not like in the past don’t know how to play… finally go out wif frend and nt always stay at home… as in the past they ask mi out 10 times I onli one time go out… or I tryin to show them I without them I can oso live happily… wan them to know they abandon mi is wrong n wan them to give back to mi… anyway whether they will or nt… life still on… but I really dunno wat I tryin to prove… even when I go k box sing I was oso nt myself… I was veri emotional I think eelin should haf see through wat I’m tryin to do…I try nt to spoilt their mood… so I hide my feelin all till the session finish… at u all know wat… tat night is the first night I drinking beer… last time I onli drink 2 slip… tis time I drink 1 mug… n I still have clear mind nt like last time onli 2 slip I aready a bit giddy le… hahaz… anyway thanks guy for bringin such a good dae to mi… even though u all did not realize actually I was trouble but thanks for givin mi such a good dae… wah wat a dae!!! Hahaz… thanks rPBL frends… n thank you li xuan…

Wat happen??? y tis feelin is back again…

Wat happen to mi…??? I long time didn’t feel like tat le… y out of a sudden it all came back… I know that if it is nt back nw it will b back in future… I know that I should nt hide my feelin but wat can I do… love one person is so painful… I even tried to forget her… I tried to freeze all my feelin for her but I jz can’t do it… y every time when I going to success to forget abt u… given up hope on u den u come to give mi hope… u know u r veri cruel… I like u for 6 years le… gping to 7 years… y every t9ime I tried to forget u… u will reappear to my face… I wish I haf the guts to tel u how much I like you… or I should say how much I love u… didn’t u feel it… I have been struggle… sometime I jz wan to tel myself I haf no feelin for u… but I can’t… my feelin for u is so deep till even I oso do not know how to describe it… u noe how many time I had heartbreak due to u… from sec 1 till nw… every time I see u sad I feel the same way too… even though I can’t share ur sadness as ur bf but I can onli b a good frend to share ur joy n sadness I aready veri happi… but I do nt know y the feelin for u had been freeze for so long but it seem had been break by something… I do nt ask 4 anything in return jz wan to know haf u ever feel the same I feel for u to mi… mayb I had ask too much from u… but I jz to let u know after the last time I tel u I still like u n I’ll wait 4 u when u ready but I really wan to noe how u feel nw… throughout the 6 yrs… I had been rejected how many times by u… how much heartbreak I haf… u should noe… or u can u can ask wei qiang n kah wee they all… they all also can’t stand mi sometimes… hahaz… I might look ok infront of u… as I will onli show my true self to Kenny kah wee n wei qiang they all… I know in the past I do nt haf any zhi ge to like u… as I was veri so called ‘weak’ n haf a lot of jue dian… but I haf change all because of u… u know how sad I am last yr when I see u being bulli by the gal in ur class but wat I can do 4 u… all I can is tok to them n try to clear the misunderstandin between u all… I remember I was once being say by Debbie… since u care 4 her u ask her urself don’t ask us… I been being say or scolded by a lot of time whenever I ask pei ni abt ur thing… I sae all tis is not askin u to return mi wat as I believe tat love nt calculate in how much u give out how much u will get in return… I know many ppl say I’m veri silly to do all this for u… but I don’t think so… I find it worth… n every time I do I feel happi even though I know I will nt get any returns… I really don’t wat to sae le… I know tat u might nt see this blog but I jz hope tat u have the chance to pop by to see all thing tat I wish to tell u but do nt haf the guts to say when I face u… hope tat u will find ur prince charmmin one dae…