Sorry JQ… & yisha...

Sorry JQ… I know u wan to help to clear my CE point this yr… but srry that yesterdae n todae workshop I didn’t attend… the reason I had told u… hope that u can forgive mi… n sha oso as I let u 2 down… anyway thanks for letting I haf the chance to go 4 the workshop… thx a lot… jie jie n shi fu… hahaz… really thx… mi nw cough more n more worst le… haiz… I know wat comment u goin to give mi le… I next thurs go @@ my family doc le… don’t worry.. tis time I’ll ask 4 inhaler… :p

Satisfaction dae…

Todae I went for the linux workshop conducted by OS IG… after getting the first touch… I liked it veri much… even through I didn’t use it before... it is quite friendly user… anyway it a veri good workshop… after the workshop I go the palza to help rPBL to prepare for the open house thing… it was quite fun in doin it… I do not have Satisfaction since the symposium le… hahaz… another thing is that I wan to sae srry to eelin as I fly her 2 times fei qi plus todae is the third time… srry… this few daes I’m nt feelin well as I’m sick… I can feel tat my asthma will come back in a short time…srry for nt joining u all… I promise tat once I recover I’ll cover it… :p… anyway I’m ok nw for the moment… next week I’ll find time to go @@ my family doctor… onli he have my record of asthma… hahaz… strange ba… :p… anyway u all nt need to worri abt mi… as I still can run, sing n dance nw… hehex… sha u need to b happi ttat u do nt haf flu or sick nw as u gt one which is abt the same as mine… u should noe wat I mean… ur body n mine is quite weak aready nw u nt sick u shuld b happi don’t always wan to b sick… n I need to clarify tat I didn’t go sha hus gt second reason… I don’t wish to pass my virus to u all As u all eatin steamboat… mi havin bad cough… so… hehex… a sick boy muz stay at home to rest… so can recover quickly n can join non sick frend for fun… hehex…:p

Shockin dae

JQ I know that todae I seem veri trouble but I think u should noe wat happen to mi after I told u… thanks for accompany mi to buy the external hard disk… thanks a lot… todae is oso a shockin dae to mi as I saw mu ut grade for my engineering math… I gt the 1st E for all my module… whereas the rest of my grade gt C+… I do not know y… mayb I think not see the Qn carefully ba… but I really thinking of givin up le… but becoz of u guys I decided to get back on my feet to strike to get better grade again… thanks guys… I find tat I more n more like RP le… hahaz… at here I learnt a lot of things… I spend a lot of my first time at here too… I went through a lot oso… I learnt class politic which I do not wish to use… as I believe tat to get good grade do not really need tat but I think I’m wrong… even if I don’t use it… they still use it on mi… hahaz… but tat nt an impt pt… wat is impt is tat I learnt throughout the process… hahaz… anyway I won’t give up so soon… I should fight with the so called ‘fate’… don worri guys… I think though le… sorri to make u all worri… :p

Wat a dae!!!

I veri long time didn’t visit science centre le… I really haf fun at dere thanks guys I think if nt u all I won’t b so happi… actually I wan to freeze my feelin for a gal in the fun… thanks for makin tis trip as I was really don wish to feelin… I oso do not know wat I tryin to sae jz wan to sae thanks… frankly speakin I really do not know wat I’m tryin to do… before I meet u all I jz met my sec sch frend… some of them is once I was quite close to them… one of them is a person I always scolded him as I don’t wish he failed his ‘o’ level n need to retake as he alwayz playin a fool in class… I know tat I was being nosy but I jz wish to see this branch of frend I spend 5 yrs studying wif them can all go poly together… but did I know tat whatever I did in their eye was nth… they tot I might b seeing them can’t make it so I did this to them… but I jz meant good… in the other word I was nosy… hahaz… but todae when I faced them… I realize tat I had nth to say to them… whatever they ask mi I ans… It become like veri awkward… like a QnA session I faced in class everydae… they tried veri hard to pull mi inside… but I do not know y I jz wish to listen to wat they say n if it funny jz laugh I jz wan to b away from the conversation… I do not know y… when the moment sha message sayin tat she stomach cramp cannot join us.. I called her… and ask her to tok to mi… or I should sae I wan to find topic to tok on the phone n stay away from the conversation for the moment… they also know that I like to sing k but they didn’t invite mi to go wif them… wat kind of frend they r… I also do not know I purposely mention going to k box wife e lin n li hong or I wan to clarify whether sha is comin wif us or nt… not onli tat when Saiful call mi I call tok to him till so ‘crazy’… I really do nt know wat I trying to show them… am I trying to show them tat the current Meng Hwee is nt like in the past le… nt shy… do nt care how ppl see mi… and do not like the past bookworm… n start to crazy… n start to b more socialize… not like in the past don’t know how to play… finally go out wif frend and nt always stay at home… as in the past they ask mi out 10 times I onli one time go out… or I tryin to show them I without them I can oso live happily… wan them to know they abandon mi is wrong n wan them to give back to mi… anyway whether they will or nt… life still on… but I really dunno wat I tryin to prove… even when I go k box sing I was oso nt myself… I was veri emotional I think eelin should haf see through wat I’m tryin to do…I try nt to spoilt their mood… so I hide my feelin all till the session finish… at u all know wat… tat night is the first night I drinking beer… last time I onli drink 2 slip… tis time I drink 1 mug… n I still have clear mind nt like last time onli 2 slip I aready a bit giddy le… hahaz… anyway thanks guy for bringin such a good dae to mi… even though u all did not realize actually I was trouble but thanks for givin mi such a good dae… wah wat a dae!!! Hahaz… thanks rPBL frends… n thank you li xuan…

Wat happen??? y tis feelin is back again…

Wat happen to mi…??? I long time didn’t feel like tat le… y out of a sudden it all came back… I know that if it is nt back nw it will b back in future… I know that I should nt hide my feelin but wat can I do… love one person is so painful… I even tried to forget her… I tried to freeze all my feelin for her but I jz can’t do it… y every time when I going to success to forget abt u… given up hope on u den u come to give mi hope… u know u r veri cruel… I like u for 6 years le… gping to 7 years… y every t9ime I tried to forget u… u will reappear to my face… I wish I haf the guts to tel u how much I like you… or I should say how much I love u… didn’t u feel it… I have been struggle… sometime I jz wan to tel myself I haf no feelin for u… but I can’t… my feelin for u is so deep till even I oso do not know how to describe it… u noe how many time I had heartbreak due to u… from sec 1 till nw… every time I see u sad I feel the same way too… even though I can’t share ur sadness as ur bf but I can onli b a good frend to share ur joy n sadness I aready veri happi… but I do nt know y the feelin for u had been freeze for so long but it seem had been break by something… I do nt ask 4 anything in return jz wan to know haf u ever feel the same I feel for u to mi… mayb I had ask too much from u… but I jz to let u know after the last time I tel u I still like u n I’ll wait 4 u when u ready but I really wan to noe how u feel nw… throughout the 6 yrs… I had been rejected how many times by u… how much heartbreak I haf… u should noe… or u can u can ask wei qiang n kah wee they all… they all also can’t stand mi sometimes… hahaz… I might look ok infront of u… as I will onli show my true self to Kenny kah wee n wei qiang they all… I know in the past I do nt haf any zhi ge to like u… as I was veri so called ‘weak’ n haf a lot of jue dian… but I haf change all because of u… u know how sad I am last yr when I see u being bulli by the gal in ur class but wat I can do 4 u… all I can is tok to them n try to clear the misunderstandin between u all… I remember I was once being say by Debbie… since u care 4 her u ask her urself don’t ask us… I been being say or scolded by a lot of time whenever I ask pei ni abt ur thing… I sae all tis is not askin u to return mi wat as I believe tat love nt calculate in how much u give out how much u will get in return… I know many ppl say I’m veri silly to do all this for u… but I don’t think so… I find it worth… n every time I do I feel happi even though I know I will nt get any returns… I really don’t wat to sae le… I know tat u might nt see this blog but I jz hope tat u have the chance to pop by to see all thing tat I wish to tell u but do nt haf the guts to say when I face u… hope tat u will find ur prince charmmin one dae…

Our big dae!!!

Yuppie… the PBL symposium finally over… yea!!! I was quite glad tat everything has finish… I do not I was really happi or nt as I will miss the past 2 weeks life tat we spend in the SLC container from 4.30pm to 11pm… even through it tough but it was veri meaniful I will capture every moment I spend with PBL symposium team… even through there are happi n sad moment… but I will remembered everything we did in the SLC container… I know tat if I say I like spend my time to do such IG thingy or keep myself bz… I was veri happi u all won’t believe… but I really am… as I realize even tough it hard to complete a task given but at least we work through together and tried our best… even though I might stress out but I really don’t mind… as I find tat it is veri meaniful and full of satisfactions… I like finally found the kind of life I wan… I know the process of doin is nt easy and I always sick throughout the process… but I find it worth… mayb u all might say tat I’m silly n no need to b so active in my IG however u all will never know wat I’m thinking n how my life in pri sch and sec sch is like… anyway I wan to say thank you to let mi have such a chance to attend such a big event… I will keep in in my memory forever… thanks rPBL to let mi haf tis chance...

Unhappi dae

Todae we having our very fast full rehearsal for the PBL symposium… I know that we are nt very well as we still need advised from people… I can take any comment from people however I do not like people that will onli say but didn’t do… I don’t mind if they have comment but at least they wan to say juz say out… not need to b like they gt a better way to improve the presentation but they keep to themselves till another person sae tat they gt comment den they will sae… wat I mean is that we are in the same IG so I believe tat whatever we do is meant good the IG so haf ideas juz share not need to b shy… I know some of them juz joined so they r nt sure wat ppl we r… but to tell u all we r veri nice ppl we can take comment… ok mayb sometimes we might unhappy wif ur points but if u xplain to us and tell us the reason y u think like tat I believe tat even if we r nt happi onli for the moment once everything over we will b fine 1… hehex… I nt blamin anyone nw as I noe I oso in the as after s0me of the comment… my face was nt veri good… I oso like to take tis chance to say sorry to all the IG members… I know tat sometimes I might b too emotional to certain things tat result in the poor tone… hope tat we all will forgive mi if I offend u… actually after I came to RP I haf hide a lot of my emotion to myself but sometime I jz control it… I nt askin for sympathy I jz wan u all know tat this is mi… I am a veri emotional person but I try to control it n try nt to affect abt the thing or task given to mi… I oso wan to take this chance to say I’m very sorry to one my best frend in my class who is Li Hong… I remembered that the first dae i and him quarrel due to something I know that at that time I’m nt in a veri gd mood so more is being fool by someone that lead to tis misunderstandin… I do not know is I think too much or wat… but I realize after tat incident our friendship like appear a creak which I do not wish to have… I wish to cover or make the creak smaller till it gone but I can’t… instead of putting the creak back it become more wider… I do not why… I wish I could ask u face to face but I do not haf the guts jz hope tat u drop by at my blog and see tis… I do not dare to ask anything from u jz hope to tel u tat no matter wat happen u r still the LI Hong I knew from the last semester… my friendship to u haven change at all… tat all I wanna to say… and I jz hope tat todae incident won’t make our misunderstanding wider…

Wat a Tiring Dae....

haiz... tot tat our president of the club KL didn't come to school we can have fun after school but never did i noe tat bad things is falling upon us.... i tot tat before my jie jie JQ flying to Bankok we shall have fun at PS never did i know that this will happened to us... sad... we were happily playing at the acrade and i was tag with JQ... on the other end... Yisha and LH team and they won… they were very happi but however when we wan to leave the place my frend sha realize that her bag had lost… so she start to search for it… before that we saw a man secretly walk passed us we did not really notice that till sha bag lost… we saw the man walk out the arcade… we ask sha to chefck her belongin den she realize tat her debit card had lost and her IC is being flip… after tat JQ think tat was amiss so she oso checked bag and realize h3r bro hp was lost and her wallet 100 dollar was gone as well…

we chased out of the arcade for the man I remember he was wearin a light blue jean, white shirt and his hand was holding a light blue windbreak… we decided to split up to search for tat person but in the end we still can’t tat person so we went to the nearest police station to report it… tat was the first time I went to the police station… actually police nt as scary as wat I think they r.. in the police every time I saw policeman I will b veri scare even through I did not do anything wrong… hahaz… but I hope tat the police can catch tat guy as soon as possible before he do it on the other person…

SaD memOrY... wHo caN heLp mI to EarSe 4 mI???

toDae culture & communication II module we tok abt discovering our EQ... it bring mi back a lot of memories.... i haf actually done the problem during my pdp english class...with one glance, i recongise it.. i remember the times we haf a lot of fun in tis problem statement... i misses all my pdp frends so much... haiz... i wish tat time can go back as i reali did enjoy the 8 daz i spend wif them... den during the 3rd meetin presentation the fac ask if anyone's friend commited sucide before... den i raise my hand n start my frends' story... i felt the heart pain again... i felt upset abt the incident again... 6 yrs has past... but i juz can't forget it... i noe i should forget the past look towards the future but seriously i miss him alot... since primary two we r frends... at a point of time we alwayz quarrel as we r so called "enermy"... since then our friendship start from here... i noe he is mischevious however he is a veri nice guy... the most upset thing is tat before the 2 dayz he died i quarrelled with him... till den i nw tat ren sheng wu chang therefore i treasure every single one of my frends veri much... i dun wish to loss anyone of them... so we should treasure them when they are ard before u lost them... n nw everytimes i heard abt ppl sayin commited sucide i think abt him... it nw become a yin ying 4 mi le... how can i get rid of it??? it is easy to sae but hard to do... somemore he is my best frend... i jz wan to keep the happi moment we spend together... but nt the sad moment... who can tel mi wat to do???

fInAllY i'M 18 yRs olD... hehex...

i'M finaLLy 18 yRs oLd le... yEa!!! tHiS yR bIrThdAy iS a haPPieSt & memoable one... hehex... thX guys... n my family meMberS as wEll... oVer thE pAsT fewS yrS... no One reMeMbEr mY bIrThdaY aT aLL... hOweveR thIs yr thEy noT onlI remember... but tHey oSo gAvE mi pReSenTs... thIs yR iS the most pResEnt I rEcEivEd over pAsT feW yR... anD i vErY seldom ceLebrAte mY biRthdAy... thIs yr mY famIly actuaLLy spend tHeIr tIme wIth mI oN that Day... so i wAs veRy toUchEd... aCtuaLLy on tHe previous dAy sTh tAt i dO wHicH i sHoUldn't dO... & soMemoRe i diD it In clAss lucky oNli 1 pErson saW it... for mOre inFormation plS asK qAs... (if u know hEr... hehex...) anD all my the oTheR frenDs bIrthDay coMing too... so i at hErE wIsh tHeM e HaPPi BiRthDaE... aLL the Best gUys

sTuDent lIfe iS all tHe wAy EXAM EXAM EXAM!!!

time fly sO faSt one year pAstIng sooN... ppL wHo haF jZ fInish "N" lEvel wisH u all paSS wiTh fLying cOloUR... fOr thOse whose whO ArE tAkIng "O" lEvEl wIsh U aLL the bEst & scOre weLL... mI myself retAkIng my EngLish "O" lEvEl nexT wEd... tO aLL mY fRiEnd wHo takIng & reTaking "o" lEvEl All the BEST & i'LL alwAyz bE suPPorting U aLL " jIa yOU!!!" tO all RepuBlicans wHo sEE tIs poSt wiSh U all dO weLL iN the coMiNg UT on next TuE... ^_^

sOmE memory r So... sWeet so r sO... sAd!!!

toDae i wAlk pAst a lot of PlaceS which making mI recall alot of thingy.... mOst oF theM seeM tAt iT jz hAppEn yEstErdaE... iT still fResh iN mY minD... mEmOrY can be gD... & bAd

tIs morNin... when i wAs iN thE train, i sAw a group oF teenage ard saMe age wIth mI, iT let mI to reCall wAt i n my few buddies DiD whenI wAs iN sEc scH... aT that mOmEnt i feEl swEEt... coz... I reCall hoW everYtIme we took tHe tRaIn tO go pLay n wOrK... aT thaT moMent I reaLi wIsh I can go Back to thAt period of tIme...

hOwever, wHen mY fRend asK mI abT oNe tHinG tHe bAd memory comeS ouT... i reCall hOw thEy tReateD mI... And hoW i tReaT tHem.... wAt dO i Get baCk iN reTurN... eVen tHough i dOn't lIkE thEm muCh but wAt i haf with mI r the memory thEy gIve tO mi...

aFter leSSon, mY frEnd pareNts drIve mI hM... we drIvE paSt mY pRiMay sChooL... i Remember a vEry vEry sAd IncIdEnt... It wAs aN obsTacle tO mI... mY bEsT fRenD jOhn... wHo wAs iN p6, jUmped doWn fRom hIs huS... iT becaMe a sHadow fOr mI aS whEven I hearD ppl sAy abT cOmmIt sUicIdE i gEt aGAited... i oSo duNNo y...

Its gd tO haf memory... bE it gD or bAd, iT will be pArt of uR liFe... TreAsure aLL ur memory tHat u hAf with tHe person wHo is special tO u sO tAt iF oNe dAe thEy leAve u Or bEing seperated we sTill haF tHE hAppI moMent & sAd moMent we Hd & tIs will sTay wIth u tIll u diE... trEasure aLL thEm & tHe ppL aRd u... ^_^

wAt R fRenDs fOr???

In tHe paSt fEw dAes... i wAs trOuBle bY sUmtHinG hOweVer i dO noT knoW why Is it so... i tRy to pUsh aLL my FrenDs aWay frOm mi and I was in a dilemma shoUld I tEll my frenDs wAt hAppEn to Mi or shOulD I keep iT to myself... aS i dO nOt wiSh to maKe my frEnDs worrY foR mI i oNli teL mY pRobLeM to one of my frEnd & aSk for heR aDvIce...

aT thAt moMeNt sHe scoLded mE being seLfish... sHe asKed mi wat is tHe DEFINATION OF FRIENDS mEaNt tO mi??? i anSwer Frends R ppl Who share ouR joY & sOllow with uS & suPPoRt in watever wE dO & theY alwAyz belieVe u... they treat us as wat we r n nt judging uS... i tRy to shUt my door to EverYone however, i feel that if i do that it is not onli mi who is hurt but the ppl around who cAre abt mi will too gEt hurt... noW deN i sEE whO my rEal frenDs r and tHe wAy & hOw they looK at mi aNd i Know wAt r FrenDs fOr... WheNevEr u upSet N wHen u iN bAd mooD... iT harD to fiNd fRendS who r truE to u and uNderStand u wEll... sO iF u haVe foUnd oNe trEaSurE thEm... iF nt.. hope tt u aLL can fInd one.. :p

anyWae thx to aLL my fReNds in wAteVer u aLL did to mi... i vEry appreciate it... thx guYs... i'll remember iT fOr my lIfE... wIsh u GuYs aLL tHe bEsT iN waTeVeR u All dO... Hope the ppl wHo saw thIs posT will reFlect wAt r frenD means to u... hoPe u aLL undErstand wAt i meAnt...hehex... continue next tIme... byE...